Easy Way Out..of pain.

Scars cover peoples wrists. Blood stained arms and legs are hidden under layers of long sleeves and jeans. And so many people on this planet wonder why? Why would any one do that to themselves. WHY?.... Because, Their emotional pain has become to much to handle, they need a way out, they need to let go of it.. It is different for every one. Different reasons, different answers. but some people become so Numb to physical pain that they lash out and cut themselves, so deep just to feel something again. it eases there pain, it allows them a moment of peace, away from their emotional pain. Away form the worlds gawking glances and comments. away from the fights of anger and accusations. the people that ignore them and refuse to speak life into there world.
My best friend, know as Ticket was such a comfort some nights. We would stay up past 2:00 on a school night talking about God, and the Universe, the wonders of the world. He wanted me so bad to turn to God, i could feel it. but i couldn't feel God. but lashing out and Hurting your skin is not the answer...That is Not the easy way out. God is. He is the Easiest, the Safest, the most Reliable way out. Ticket spoke words to me i will never forget. he tried desperately to make me believe this, and honestly i still struggle with it. i cried out to Ticket, i couldn't feel God, i couldn't. It was as if he Did not care about me. Ticket told me to listen to a song from the radio. "Need You Now, by Plumb"... i don't need God...that's my response. but is it true? Do i need God. Some days the pain of life overflows and its hard to contain... DEAR God.. Do I Need You? Are You REAL?! Ticket Says You are...but I cant feel you! Whats Going On? Why Are So Many People Hurting...Why Doesn't This Change!? GOD...HELP ME!~ Your Wounded Searching Child.